
I often wonder how people handle their guilt. Do people have guilt?
Do you?
Do think before you go to bed at night, that you don't deserve happiness?

But this is something I shouldn't devote my energies on, because in the end, this is how sadness and depression starts. You dig deeper into your own past, and you end up licking the edge of a razor blade, and you pray for the courage to press.
So, I do something else. I create. I find new ways to express my self, through art, sharp video editing and a blazing sense of humor.
I have things in my life that I love. Sara, my Iphone4, my Ipad2, my new computer, my cats.
And I have things that I want, a new camera (Canos EOS 600D), and a mac computer. And some would say, that these material things won't make me happy. But they would be wrong. because I am pioneer consumer. I love technology and the things it enables me to do with my creative spirit.
I don't know, perhaps I just need to get laid. :)